Letting Go

Just bought 500 days of Summer. I love it, but at the same time its beautifully depressing, like Zach Braff movies. It looks at a "1st love" or a 1-sided "1st love" relationship and the eventual destruction w/ a girl name Summer.
I laughed, I cried, (and I write cliches). I was walking up stairs to bed that night and thought man (SPOILER ALERT) if the days don't stop counting til your focus starts on another relatinship and I haven't been in a relationship in I don't know how long...does that mean my days are still counting w/ the ex? A voice inside my head said, "No, you have your relationship with Jesus!" I laughed outloud at my self. What a sunday school answer!!! But then I realized, no I really do have him and don't have to count 1bijillion days of ______ or however it was. (Thank you Lord once again I have no idea...it's such a ahh sense of calm knowing that I don't know!)
I put the relationship on the cross about 3 times after it was over. Doesn't work the 1st time? Yeah, but I kept dragging the memories back, or as one friend pointed out "You use the memories as your relationship" but finally I was like JESUS PLEASE TAKE THIS AND DON'T LET ME HAVE IT BACK IT'S EXHAUSTING HOLDING ON TO!!!! And he did. I laugh, it's almost like the song "you're so vain, I bet you think this song is about you" And I'm saying "i'm so over it, but I need to blog to let you know I'm over it" But I can honestly say no...I am over it cause my friend Jesus took it from me, carried the load, and now "my chains are gone, I've been set free". Thank you Lord, You rock!!!