I'm selfish!

My girl Emily ROCKED this morning quoting Lamentations 3:1-24 by Memory!!! She is so awesome and such an amazing person God has laid in my path of life. I love her, but that's not the point of this blog.

Lifepoint kicked off a series called "HOPE" Cause lets be honest...we all need a little more of that with what's going on!!! I kind of got kicked in the butt today during the service. Man am I selfish. I have become a consumer.
I have a job that I am lucky to have, yet I complain about the distance.
I get a place closer to the job, yet I worry about having a slower paced life and being bored.
Which is funny cause I also complain of lack of sleep.
And my list goes on and on......
My thoughts should be: I have amazing friends and familiy that love and support me, I have my health, I have a car to get me to work, and God also blessed me after my whining with an apartment 20minutes from work. Not only did he bless my prayer request, my amazing church family is filled w/ loving self-less people that are willing to make the 45minute drive to help me move in. I need to "turn my frown upside down" and praise God cause He is GOOD!!!!

I'm ready to stop being a baby and truly learn what walking in God's scripture means. Not just read it and move on, but let it affect me and choosing to trust him. And to be thankful for what He's given me and trusting Him to continue to take care of me, not just walk through like a buffet line and take what's mine. Like Pastor Jeff said today Trust is not an emotion, its a decision.
"Remember my affliction and my wandering, the wormwood and bitterness. Surely my soul remembers And is bowed down within me. This I recall to my mind, therefore I have hope. THe Lord's loving kindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; GREAT IS THY FAITHFULNESS. THE LORD IS MY PORTION, says my soul, THEREFORE I HAVE HOPE IN HIM." Lamentations 19-24


Our anchor verse is Romans 15:13 "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit" I pray this not only for myself, but for all that shall come across this blog. I pray we all find more joy and more hope and definitely more of God.

Waiting on a Living Situation

I got this in my facebook inbox from the daily verse:
He said to them, 'Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there, and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.'"Matthew 17:20
Picture a mountain. Any mountain. If you having faith in God is enough to move that mountain, don't you think that the same God will also move in your life in the areas that seem impossible? Look at those things like you look at the mountain. Have faith that He will do what only He can do and ask and trust Him to do it!

What's my mountain? Where am I going to live?!?!?! It's funny, there's another verse in Matthew that talks about how the birds don't reap or harvest; they trust God for food-and the flowers don't make clothes; they trust God to give them petals so why worry? It's also in Phillipians...don't worry about anything instead pray about EVERYTHING.

So why am I so concerned about not knowing my future living situation when I know #1 GOD IS FAITHFUL!!!! and #2 I have somewhere to live for the next 24 days. I have put an un-official offer on a house-it will be official Monday when I sign the actual offer. And then the waiting game comes. Yet, I know there is nothing that is going to change today or tomorrow for that matter whether I get the house or not. My mind likes to wander (dumb mind) and what if it doesn't happen? God has blessed me with an amazing friend that has offered a spare room month to month til I either close on the house or my offer gets rejected and have to figure out where to go. And do I really want to push for something to happen and then not be living where God wants me? There is a lesson here. I just need to stay steadfast to my God and let him take this. He made the world-finding me a place isn't too hard for him; at least he knows the area!

Lord, I am praying for you to give me comfort and to take this burden away from me. I know you already have it planned out and though I like to know what's going to happen when , that your way is always better and I'll want to wait and let you work it all out. I love you for loving me, dealing with my crazy, and taking care of me.

I can buy a house?!?!?

I'm dealing with adult-hood. Funny, since when I was little all I wanted was to grow up, drive, date, go to college. My driving had me in defensive driving this morning. I'll not even start on the roller coaster that's my dating life (or the lack there of), but I am ridiculously blessed and am getting ready to start an amazing job using the entirety of my college degree. So now what's left? Housing. Need to move closer to my job. Found a wonderful starter home to buy and went to the bank to see what I could be pre-approved for. I am pre-approved for the house. Of course the monthly payment at the price is 50% of my monthly net income, but apparently I am adult enough to be able to afford the mortgage. Growing up is scary. Luckily God is always good and if it's His will He'll give me the money to afford their bill.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not calamity to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search Me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13